Let us linger here awhile in the foolishness of things.
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layyourheadonmychest
this.is.the.end.my.only.friend
i wanna see her play
i wanna see her touch
i dont know how to explain this to her
maybe i shouldn’t
i don’t want her to think of me as a pervert
how to say this is just because
i’ll miss her
i’ll miss us
i dont want to forget the details
her curves, her voice, her eyes, her hair
i thought we had more time
i always think so
we are getting further and further away
and i dont like it this way
we’ll grow tired of one and other
sooner or later there’ll be a point
where the only thing left to do
is to end it
and that would be it
no more come backs
been there before
but unlike before
i know
i’ll always love her
she was destructive
she broke my back
she broke my throne
but i cant shake the feeling
that she was the best thing that ever happened to me
but
Let us linger here awhile in the foolishness of things.
my only friend
she
i think this break is the best thing that could have happened to us
opened my eyes
opened her eyes
i encouraged her to get to know someone who’s interested in her
someone who is “exactly her type” she claims
i was even surprised by my suggestion
but the more we go
the more i understand that i only want her happiness
even if that means me not being a part of her life
if she’ll be happy i think i can manage
i love her this way though she might never understand
me
and i thought stacking orange boxes were hard
try horse shit and fertilizer bags
amendment.to.beloved.mind
i feel fine/nothing?
even if i’m living a lie
even if she’s been unfaithful
i’m still happy i’ve stood by my word
i dont regret not going
i dont regret not being with them
i’m a better person as a result
i stood by my values
it has nothing to do with her
let her do whatever she feels right
whatever that makes her happy
(:
journey.within.the.mind
i’m grateful to her
i really enjoy psychology
i think if it wasn’t for mark , i would have liked it much more
has she been faithful?
does she have any ego defense mechanism?
do i have any?
i know a couple of times I’ve been tempted here
but i stopped my self from being places ,
from being with people,
and my only explanation to myself was her
then at nights,
i just hugged my pillow thinking of her,
cause it just wouldn’t be fair to her any other way
would she be honest?
or like first time around i’m living a lie again
i’m tired.
it’s.all.fresh
but only with her
bizarrely.i.envy.your.life
I’m sure you will envy it all the more the less you know! That’s the way everything maintains its allure, by keeping something hidden
Charlotte
