i know what’s wrong
i know how to fix it
what i dont understand is
why dont i just do it?

i hate her while loving her
and she makes it even harder

today i worked as a general laborer shifting orange boxes
it was one of my ” A ha” moments
i’ve been getting a lot of those lately
i remember pushing laborers on site in that weather
shouting and complaining
i was on the other side of the scene today
even with Sydney breeze  and cold water
i begged for mercy